Friday, April 27, 2007

Where We Are

"No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; He'll never let you be pushed past your limit; He'll always be there to help you come through it." -I Corinthians 10:13

Wow!! The roller coaster continues. Randi returned to the hospital fro her second steroid shot and continued heart rate monitoring on the boys. The heart rate tracings looked really good for both Pooh and Tigger. Following the trip to Labor and Delivery, we returned to the perinatalogist's office for our scheduled ultrasound. On this visit, we saw NO reverse end diastolic flow on either of them. We actually saw some solid diastolic flow again, mostly a positive side affect of the steroid shots, and the doctor was "doing cartwheels," as described by his nurse. That's right, we are back on the upswing. It really wears down your emotions.

"Accept the place the divine providence has found for you, the society of your contemporaries, the connection of events." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

As I look back over the course of events that led us to this point, it is amazing to see the Hand of God move. We are thankful for our upbringing that provided us a strong foundation of faith, patience, and temperament. We are thankful for those like JenMom and the triplets that have come before us with similar experiences to give us a frame of reference of what to expect. We are thankful for Randi's subchorionic hematoma early in the pregnancy that alerted us to seek out a specialist. For, I am certain that we would have already lost Pooh if we had not already sought out additional treatment. We are thankful for this blog and the outpouring of support we have received. It started out as a funny way to show off belly shots and ultrasound pictures.

"The question, O Me! So sad, recurring- What good amid these, O Me, O Life? Answer: That you are here- that life exists and identity, That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse." -Walt Whitman

The perinatalogist also gave us some more sobering warnings. There is still a real chance that we could only go home with one baby, although he stated that "we had every right to be optimistic and celebratory that we have made it this far." He also gave us a little confidence that Pooh might have actually gained more weight than we previously thought. He's just not sure how accurate the measurements were from Tuesday. He said that determining weight through ultrasound measurements is just a little more technical version of Navin R. Johnson at the carnival guessing your weight. He'd look you up and down, look at your hat size, see how big your waist line is, and figure out what the inseam was on your boot cut jeans to get a number. Sometimes it's accurate; sometimes it's not.

"Prayer is something we do in our time. The answer come in God's time." -Father Cavanaugh in Rudy, the movie

"Let the day's own trouble be enough for the day." -Matthew 6:34 (Paraphrased)

So, we are plowing along and preparing ourselves the best we can. Whether we like it or not, this is the way life is going to be for a while. Every appointment brings with it the joy of making it to the next appointment, but it can also be extremely disconcerting to see your child suffering. Randi returns to Labor and Delivery Saturday for more IV fluids and ultrasounds. Then, it's back to the perinatalogist's office on Monday for our regular appointment.


JenMom said...

I am ready to invest in kneepads for all the praying I am doing for you all. There are so many of us standing with you and behind you...but absolutely certain that God is still in charge...whew! I feel like God has me right back in my hospital bed at Northside WAITING, hopeful, uncertain. Hang in there. MUCH love!